Melancholia

Do you ever feel like this?

I have been feeling restless lately. The world looks is foggy and everything feels wrong. I am moody (with an emphasis on the mood cranky). Not to mention I am hormonal. Simply put, I am just not myself.

I have not been meditating, practicing yoga, reading or listening to anything spiritual in weeks. I feel such a disconnect from my true self and my source. I am begining to realize just how important that connection is for my wellbeing. I don't just have an abstract idea, I am feeling the full weight of being adrift ~ or should I say sunk?

I long for the enjoyment of the banter and conversation of friends on the same wavelength. I miss the truth and honesty of a friend giving their oppinion or insight in a deep discussion. I am hungry for intellectual conversation on things other than the current political election.

I am feeling seasick from floating on a sea of insecurity and self doubt. I have been floating in a venrable Dead Sea of inaction, bouyed by the salt of tears falling from my soul, longing for the day that I will begin.